Candace: Results are in…my recent very painful but well-worth it biopsy came back as negative. This is a 10K weight balancing on top of an elephant lifted off my chest. I get to try another round of IVF! The less exciting news is my oncologist thinks it will resurface at a later date, so I will be on an annual biopsy protocol. Let’s just fast forward to today’s events…
Ever been so preoccupied with your thoughts that you turn on auto pilot and completely zone out on paying attention to your driving? That was me today on my way to our much anticipated fert-doc appointment. Kinda missed my exit (twice) and kinda showed up 20 minutes late. My thought is that new Audi that Dr. O is driving right now, that’s complements of Chris and I. Your welcome Dr. O, so you can wait for me while I do 80+ down the highway, get lost, and then show up late. We have more than paid for that special “late show” privilege.
The meds I was on for my complex hyperplasia treatment left me with one screwed up cycle, so who knows when that B*tch of an Aunt Flo will show up. We can’t start our next IVF until Dear Auntie shows up. The funny thing about people going through infertility is that you are either anxiously awaiting the arrival of Aunt Flo so you can start your next treatment or you are waiting for her to not dare to show up which would mean that you are pregnant. Most of the time, it does not work the way you hope. So it is a hate-hate relationship. In the meantime we do the foot work, which is order the “party in a box” (the hella-expensive IVF meds) and get the insurance and financial ball rolling. Never thought I would be this excited anticipating shots.
Chris: Candace is excited about shots?! Guess what … I’m excited about spending large amounts of money! What is going on? This goes against the grain, it is like speeding up at a red light or using a 10 pound sledge hammer to put finishing nails in trim. You just should not be excited about spending your nest egg! But, here is the thing, we have a good chance of having a successful IVF and after waiting so long, I – no we – are ready to take this scary plunge again. The unfortunate thing is that going through another round of IVF is going to be expensive. Maybe more expensive if we decide to do some additional testing. But, Damn, it will be great to be actively working on expanding our family again. Not to mention that we got the great news that Candace does not have any pre-cancerous cells present! I am so ridiculously proud of her and everything that she has gone through to realize our dreams. So, here in the very near future, it will be time to cross your fingers and wish us luck. We just go in the seats of the IVF roller coaster and we are starting to ever-so-slowly go up that first hill. I just hope we will be smiling when we get off this ride!
