Have I ever mentioned to any of you about the dusty onesie I had stored away in the depths of my closet? Although this blog captures the “later years” of our conception trials there are about 5 years that we did not talk so openly about our struggle.  This was a circuitous time in our lives that was ripe with naivety, shame and the feeling of … [Read more...]

 Anybody else still doing some holiday shopping?  No ... well you are all much better than we are.  A while ago, we were in Hallmark looking for some Christmas gifts.  Invariably, we were drawn to all of the "First Christmas" and "My First Christmas" ornaments.  Maybe we are just sadists and love torturing ourselves, but … [Read more...]

Candace: Out of the blue, our transfer came and went. Maybe it seemed to fly by so quickly because we weren’t necessarily in the medical “trenches” this time. She is. I would go to the pharmacy pick up and drop off our GS’s (Gestational Carrier) meds and then go back to focusing on the now. Maybe it was too much focusing on the now because the NOW … [Read more...]